But I struggled to be happy. I was happy for Casey. I was happy for our friends and their healthy babies. But I wasn't happy. It was the day I was told to take a HPT. I got a Big Fat Negative.
Apparently, this is (also) not the month.
Now I am waiting on AF to show. On CD1, I will return to the doctors office and we will start IVF.
We will join the roughly 3% of infertile couples who seek advanced treatments. We do so knowing our odds aren't great. It is unlikely I will ever be a biological mother. But, we have hope. God has led us down the path this far and He is still with us. He has our perfect child in mind. Our one last shot at a biological child starts soon, but I know if this doesn't work it is because God has the perfect baby custom made for us just waiting in someone else's womb.
Our one last shot at a biological baby... scary words to think about.